Shadows of the past creep up behind me.It frightens me to death. It feels like I'll never manage to get past the things that were.I will allways be alone amongst people because nobody knows me and I don't strive to know anyone. It still feels like everything is cold and sad.Stillness, numbness. Shattered dreams that haunt forever. Indelible memories of people I once loved. That is all that remains: a memory, a shadow, a dream that turns into a nightmare and I suddenly wake up; alone, terrified in the dark, never knowing who I'll have to leave next, who I'll have to hurt, in order for me to live - no - to exist... in silent death, creeping up on new people, sucking every ounce of joy out of them and leaving them... DEAD, numb, still. So that I can have, once more, the joy of rasing anger filling me up, like a fire that is fueled only by the sorrow of those around me.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
The nightmare that I am
Shadows of the past creep up behind me.It frightens me to death. It feels like I'll never manage to get past the things that were.I will allways be alone amongst people because nobody knows me and I don't strive to know anyone. It still feels like everything is cold and sad.Stillness, numbness. Shattered dreams that haunt forever. Indelible memories of people I once loved. That is all that remains: a memory, a shadow, a dream that turns into a nightmare and I suddenly wake up; alone, terrified in the dark, never knowing who I'll have to leave next, who I'll have to hurt, in order for me to live - no - to exist... in silent death, creeping up on new people, sucking every ounce of joy out of them and leaving them... DEAD, numb, still. So that I can have, once more, the joy of rasing anger filling me up, like a fire that is fueled only by the sorrow of those around me.
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dap..e nasoala chestia cu amintirile..da e interesant ca am scris despt ac chestie..fara sa citim ce a scris cealalta
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prea bestiala poza :x
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